Dear Old Self

November 2, 2014

Dear Old Me,

If you're wondering who I am, I'm your future self. Heck, you will still recognize me. I just got a foot taller, and meehh, still pencil-thin. But I'm not writing because I want you to know what you will look like when you're already 22 years old. This is different.

I just want to ask you if you've imagined that you will be grumpy and hot-headed as I do now. Or you thought if you will be the serious type when you've become an adult. Bet you didn't. Cause I know you were eager to please. You do not want to have a row with someone. You will avoid trouble if you can, and sit and cry in a corner if you get hurt. That you're oozing with patience and just wait for your turn or wait for someone. Mind you, I also question myself where did I put all of those attributes of yours.

Me? Now, I'm a teacher, as what you've been repeating when you are asked to write formal themes. But honestly, I do not know myself anymore. I have become too moody and hot-headed. I'm now sarcastic, hard to joke at, and hard to please. I complain of small things. I do not care if I hurt somebody, intentionally or not. What is happening to me? Can you please tell me what made me into the monster I am now? 

I wish your attitude stuck with me until this time because I'm finding it hard to act as an adult. I do not know if this was the real me. They keep saying, "Oh that Romel? He was the most behaved and kind student we had before!" 

Where have you been all this time? When did you leave? And when are you coming back? Please write a reply to this soon.

Sincerely,

Your future (and lost) 22 year old self